Benedictine Diary

Advent Tone.

2009-12-08T11:37:00.000-08:00

When asked about the significance of Advent, one tends to give an answer that has to do either with the nativity or the second coming. Both have to do with looking forward to the coming of Christ in one way or another, either from the viewpoint of looking back to the past, or looking forward to the future. And yet, Advent is more here and now than we tend to realize. It certainly is about the past birth of Christ, but not only that. It certainly is about the second coming of Christ, but not only that. Advent it made to set a certain tone for us to tap into.

Attend any symphony or musical or movie and you will come to pick out recurring themes within the over all soundtrack. The music may deviate to other intricate dances, but certain bits of the score will be repeated, often in relation to certain characters. Such sounds come to represent the essence of the character, whether it be Indian Jones, Maiden Marian or William Wallace. Such music cresendos and we know that villians are about to fall, maidens to be rescued, romantic kisses kissed and epic battles fought. Even a few simple, memorable notes can que us in to pay attention- something big is about to happen, the hero is going to come on stage any minute.

In Advent, we are brought to focus on the tone of Christ's coming, joining our voices with those of ages past which will echo on to tomorrow as posterity too takes up the cry, "He is coming! The King is coming in glory!" It links us to the past, as we form the bridge to which our children too will take up the joyful shout. It is about past, present and future. Not only about what was or will be, but about what is. About I AM. The tuning fork was struck ages ago even before the birth of the Bethlehem star when a Messiah was promised. The tone of waiting, of hoping. That sweet, enduring note has not died out. It rings on still through time and all creation. He is coming. My God, He is coming.

Amen.

Ash Wednesday.

2008-02-08T06:20:00.000-08:00

I recall growing up as a Baptist child, always seeing Ash Wednesday on the calendar, but never really understanding what it was, or what it was about. It was just one of those odd holidays that had no meaning to me, much like Boxing Day. I knew the name, but that was about the extent of it. As I became an adult, and started my journey to the Anglican faith in college, things like Advent, Lent, and Ash Wednesday began to take on a new meaning for me, and what depth of meaning they have come to hold in my life.

It is a strange thing, to one unfamilar with the tradition, that catholics around the world would get up early on a Wednesday to go to Mass, not eat all day, and have black soot smeared upon their foreheads in the shape of a cross. Growing up, I remebered in Sunday school hearing about the Old Testament rituals of donning ashes and sack cloths as a means of repentance when one's soul is grieved by one's sins. It always seemed so distant a tradition, until I came to understand and embrace it as an adult.

Penance is often looked on with suspicion and misunderstanding from those outside the faith. It might seem that catholics are obsessed with feeling guilty or balancing out sins with penance. In reality, penance has very little to do with trying to settle some karma score with God. Penance- and Lent, being the season of penance- is first and foremost about love. When I do wrong against someone I love, I want. for love's sake, to show them my sorrow, to show them how it grieves me that I've hurt them. This does not erase the wrong that I've done, but it does show my love for that person. It does not mean they will forgive me, and it may not even be necessary to do in order to obtain their forgiveness, but it does, nonetheless, demonstrate my love for them. How much more so, if we are willing to apoligize and try to make ammends to our earthly brethen, should we strive to do so for God? Penance is exactly that, saying "God, I love you, and I'm sorry that I have wronged you." Forgiveness then, is entirely up to Him. Luckily for us, his ability for mercy is ever greater than our own.

And with the imposition of ashes, there is more symbolism than even just penance. As I kneel before the priest, and he traces that cross upon my forehead, his fingers trace right over another cross: that which was traced in Holy water on the day of Baptism. That seal, invisble, yet ever present, become externaly visible for one day out of the year, reminding us that we bear His mark, that we belong to Him. And that seal bears with is the comfort and assurance of all the promises of Christ, imparted to us through his goodness. And that, my friends, is nothing short of Love. Amen.

On hope.

2007-05-09T05:56:00.000-07:00

Why oh why are bad things allowed to happen to good people? In in scripture, we are assured that all things work together for the good for those who love God. Why then are we not protected from the sorrows and sufferings of this life? The answer simply, if you trust in God's promises, is that those sorrows and sufferings must work for our own good. And surely we all know of the assurances that such struggles make us stronger and wiser, and those assurances are true without doubt. But I also believe in a far simpler and even more beautiful reason than the promise of growth that we are allowed to hurt: Hope. For without strife, without pain, without the threat of despair, there can be no hope.

Life is full of it's own comings and goings: joys and sorrows, births and deaths, unions and schisms. It is in this delicate balance that we are able to flourish and grow without being overburdened. Good times keep us uplifted, while bad times keep us keen, alert, hopeful. For when the world seemed at it's darkest, yearning for a savior to come, Christ was born, the hope of the world. And after the dark hour of his death, he rose again, the hope of souls. And now from on high, he reigns still, the hope of all who'd come to him. With arms outstretched, waiting, longing, loving, he waits, wanting nothing more than to give you hope. Amen.

Vincent Christian

On the Way Down...

2006-04-23T14:21:00.000-07:00

Sick and tired of this world
There’s no more air
Tripping over myself
Going nowhere
Waiting
Suffocating
No Direction-
I took a dive

And on the way down
I saw You, and You saved my from myself
And I won’t forget the way You loved me
On the way down- I almost fell right through
But I held on to You.

These words are from a song by Ryan Cabrera, a pop artist, written about a girl. I was driving home from mass today when it came on the radio. While I had heard the song many times before, today it struck me with a Spiritual application. So many times in my own life when I take the Fall, it seems that right before I am dashed against the rocks by my own mistakes, He is there with outstretched arms to grab onto. He comes with love, not judgment, and oh, what a Love he has to offer.

The Sunday after Easter is what’s known as Divine Mercy Sunday. The Divine Mercy image (shown above) and the Chaplet of Divine Mercy were revealed to St. Faustina (shown below) due to our of the Lord’s desire to bring the world’s attention back to His abounding mercy. Faustina was a nun in Poland who saw visions of our Lord. As in the image above, Christ pulled back his mantle and two beams of light poured forth, one white, one red. They represent the blood and water that poured forth from his side when it was pierced by the soldier’s spear.

The shedding of Christ’s precious blood was indeed the ultimate act of mercy, as the One who was perfect sacrificed himself for us, first on the cross, and then daily within the Eucharist feast. Through His many gifts He offers us grace and mercy as he waits patiently to catch us up in his strong and loving arms, and yes, sometimes while we’re on the way down. Amen.

-Riley

On Spiritual Drought.

2006-02-23T17:31:00.000-08:00

My goodness, it's been a long time since I've posted on here. I've been aware that I needed to get back to making more regular posts, but have been having a difficult time of late in choosing topics to write on. Of course, there is an abundance of themes and dogmas from which one could choose, so it was hardly from a lack of subject matter. I just haven't found myself particularly inspired to write lately, and on that note, thought that my lack of writing would be something worth writing on.

All those who set upon the spiritual path find that their vigor, zeal and "closeness" with God may seem to wax and wane from time to time. At one point upon the road, one feels a vibrant and warm communion with the Father, while at others, God seems distant, if His presence can be felt at all. It can be difficult to understand why a God who allegedly loves us could allow us to feel so distant from His comforting embrace. Some assume that it is due to some sort of sin or deficiency in their own life that has set a gulf between them and their Lord. In fact, there are some evangelist who preach that if one is truly right with God, that person will be a beacon of success, being rich, trim and without disease or depression. Well, yay for them, but personally, I've never known God to work that way, and I think it would be pretty dull if He did.

So why do these periods of apparent distance find their way into the lives of even the most devout Christians? Because it is a very natural and even healthy part of life- all life- from the spiritual to the physical and beyond. Such cycles of abundance and lean can be found everywhere we look- winter has its summer, night its day, high-tide its low. And like the seasons, times of spiritual drought are often precursers to pending spring, when life bursts forth in glorious day, revealing new growth, freshness and vitality. The winter you may be experiencing now could very well be a time of testing that will yield bountiful fruit of the Spirit.

Therefore it is both unwise and a waste to despise low times, for they are as necessary as the good times. Accept them with calm and patience, knowing that this too shall pass, and when it does, the resulting harmony will have been worth the wait.

Amen. -Riley

On the Advent Wreath.

2005-12-24T11:16:00.000-08:00

I was sitting one evening watching my mother as she decorated the Christmas tree and fought with my cats to keep them from climbing it. Meanwhile, I sat in the dining room watching the burning advent wreath on the table before me. The wreath I made is composed of one common dish in which all five candles sit together. At the time, only the four colored candles were lit, as the center Christ candle is not lit until the Christmas mass.

As I watched, the purple and rose votive candles began to melt, and the wax pooled into the dish and circled around the Christ candle. It was then that the full symbolism of the wreath hit me, as the wax from the Hope, Love, Joy and Peace candles all gravitated to the center Christ candle. I had always viewed the wreath as going from outside to in, since we light the center candle last, but I now think it more accurate to say that it goes from the inside out, as Hope, Love, Joy and Peace are all emitted from Christ. Christ is the source of all these things, and in return, we look to his comming with these same virtues. From Christ we recieve a sense of hopeful, loving and joy-filled peace, with which we in turn offer Him. It all comes full circle, just like the shape of the advent wreath, in which we find perfect balance, harmony and the full essence of what Christmas truly is. Amen.

-Riley

Holding a Child.

2005-12-12T17:43:00.000-08:00

I'm fairly conservative about my church services. If the priest is not properly vested, I tend to notice and be vexed by that. I like my mass High Church, will bells, incense and chanting. So you can imagine the difficulty I have attending different denominations. This past week I had the distinct and honored pleasure of attending church with my Sifu. It wasn't quite what I expected, but I must admit that I was inspired during the service in a way I feel inspired to share with all of you now.

When Sifu invited me to come to church with him, I readily agreed, and didn't bother to ask any questions as to what kind of church he attended, or the nature of the service. When such an esteemed master requests your presence, you don't ask alot of questions, you simply go. I arrived early, as I often do, to pray the Rosary before the service. There was a band warming up, with a drum set and guitars and everything. I noted the contemporary nature of the service, and though it was very different from what I was used to, and I assured myself that I'd be fine during the service. Well, that was until a gentleman took the microphone from the pulpit and began to yell at the congregation. Not angrily, but in an excited "let's get this party started" kind of way. This church wasn't just contemporary, it was full blown Charismatic. It turned out to be a fortunate thing that Sifu was late, because if he had been there, I'd have likely jumped clear into his lap. To say I was tense would be the vast understatement of the year. I've been more relaxed in dentist chairs than I was in that pew at that moment.

Sifu arrived a few minutes later to find me hiding in the farthest seat of the back pew. He waved for me to follow him as he made his way up the aisle closer towards the middle. I could have killed him. His lovely wife and baby girl were with him, and I was thankful to have a bit of a group to hide amongst. "Christ-fest 2005" continued at the front of the church, and Sifu clapped and whistled some while I stood next to him with all the mobility of a frozen board, only to have my eyes flash open wide when a woman began speaking in tongues to our left. If I had been knocked over for any reason, I'd have likely shattered like an ice sculpture.

After a few minutes, his baby worked her way down from her mother's arms to her father's and into mine. She spent a long while playing with my saints medals, my rosary as well as tugging on my cheeks and earring. It was while holding her that the tension began to melt from me. As a watched her play and coo and smile up at me with a grin like starlight, I began to wonder if this is how Joseph must have felt when he first held Mary's son. There was the child as beautiful as anything on Earth, who, though not his own, was as dear and precious as if it were.

As I continued to watch that amazing child play with my cross, she gave me a sense of serenity that no one else could have in that moment. And it was in that quiet moment, amidst all the background sounds of praise, that I felt the Spirit. And though that is not my particular style of worship, He was still there for those who need that particular medium. Sifu eventually took his daughter back, and though I hated to let her go, I finally felt a sense of peace. That is, until Sifu mentioned something about snakes. (He was of course joking... I hope.) But still, amidst a tense situation, I'd found a spirit of peace in the eyes of a little girl who couldn't even walk yet, and that's something I'll never forget.

Let us look with joy towards the coming feast of the birth of the Child who is the giver of all peace. Amen.

Riley

On the Season of Advent.

2005-12-11T19:23:00.000-08:00

Advent was something that I'd never heard of until I joined the Episcopal Church. As a Baptist, there had always been a great emphasis on Christmas, but Advent was something that wasn't really familiar. The beginning of the liturgical church year, Advent is a semi-penitential time in which we remember Christ's coming when he was born in Bethlehem, and look forward to his future Second Coming.

Advent lasts for the four Sundays before Christmas. In most churches and many homes, Advent wreaths are used to mark the days and symbolize different themes for each week. The wreath is composed of four or five candles, three purple, one rose and one optional white. The three colored candles form a circle and the white sits in the center. The weeks for advent go as follows:

Week one: purple candle- Hope
Week two: purple candle- Love
Week three: rose candle- Joy
Week four: purple candle- Peace
Christmas day: white candle- Christ

Each week we focus on a particular Christian virtue, and meditate upon it, thereby preparing ourselves spiritually for the coming Holy day. Advent was once a penitential season, leading up to the High Holy day of Christmas (similar as Lent is to Easter). This has become less common in recent times, when the season has taken on a bittersweet mixture of joy and penance. But whether it is observed with joy or solemnity, the air of expectancy is always present.

Since I first learned about Advent, it has become one of my favorite times of the Liturgical year. With all the anticipation and joy of a coming Child and the triumphant returning of the King, it is a promising time of renewal and refocus of our Christian walk. I pray that you all may find refreshment in your daily lives as the time of Christ's Advent draws nearer. Amen.

Riley

On the Immaculate Conception (of Mary).

2005-11-23T05:06:00.000-08:00

A dear woman once came to me with great concern. She is a close friend of mine, and a devout protestant. So it happens from time to time that my Catholicness worries her. She sat in my room and was looking at a lovely picture I have of Our Lady of Grace, one of my favorite images of the Blessed Mother. She looked at it for a while, then, seemingly out of the blue, asked, "What do you think of the Catholic Church's deifying of Mary?" I told her that the Church did not now, nor would ever deify Mary. To which she responded with a question of the Immaculate Conception. It is a doctrine often misunderstood by our evangelical protestant brethren, and one that I feel deserves a bit of explanation. As always, it is not my intent to convince you of the doctrine, for I fully believe that only God is capable of changing the heart. But I will take the opportunity to inform you of it, so that you may at least understand it, regardless of your own personal belief.

Many confuse the doctrine of the Immaculate Conception of Mary with the same kind of Immaculate Conception regarding Christ when this is not at all what the Church intended. Mary, our Blessed Mother, was born of St. Anne and St. Joachim. She was born of two human parents, unlike Christ who had only one. The doctrine of the Immaculate Conception states that Mary "in the first instance of her conception, by a singular privilege and grace granted by God, in view of the merits of Jesus Christ, the Savior of the human race, was preserved exempt from all stain of original sin."

This does not mean that she lived a perfect life as Christ did, but that she was "full of grace", as the archangel so eloquently greeted her. (The entire first line of the Hail Mary "Hail Mary full of grace the Lord is with the, blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of they womb Jesus", is lifted directly from scripture.) No one else in all of scripture was so greeted.

For the "sola scriptura" Christian, there is not much backing up for the doctrine, but neither is there disproof. However the Catholic Church, along with several similar denominations, do not rely merely on scripture, but also on tradition and reason, viewing doctrine as a three legged stool, rather than a single rod. Our Lady of Lourdes introduced herself to Saint Bernadette thus, "I am the immaculate conception..."

Whether one accepts this doctrine or not isn't really my concern here. My concern is setting straight the false impression of "Mary worship" that many perceive to be taught by the Catholic Church. We honor our Mother, and acknowledge her special place among the saints, but never should her veneration become confused with worship. I honor many people who are my superior: my former abbot, my sifu, my priest. The Blessed Mother, then, being the vessel through which my Lord and Savior became flesh, is surely worthy of my respect and consideration. It is for this reason I have no problem praying the Rosary, or accepting the doctrine of the Immaculate Conception. It simply makes sense in my mind, does not run contrary to scripture, and strengthens my faith in the one true God. Anything that does that, I cannot consider bad. Amen.

Riley

Canticle of the Creatures

2005-11-13T17:44:00.000-08:00

This canticle both amazed and intreagued me. I hope you enjoy it. I'll be posting my thoughts on it later, but for now, just take it in in all its beauty.

Most high, all-powerful, all good, Lord!
All praise is yours, all glory, all honor
And all blessing.

To you alone, Most High, do they belong.
No mortal lips are worthy
To pronounce your name.

All praise be yours, my Lord, through all that you have made,
And first my lord Brother Sun,
Who brings the day; and light you give to us through him.
How beautiful is he, how radiant in all his splendor!
Of you, Most High, he bears the likeness.

All praise be yours, my Lord, through Sister Moon and Stars;
In the heavens you have made them, bright
And precious and fair.

All praise be yours, my Lord, through Brothers Wind and Air,
And fair and stormy, all the weather's moods,
By which you cherish all that you have made.

All praise be yours, my Lord, through Sister Water,
So useful, lowly, precious, and pure.

All praise be yours, my Lord, through Brother Fire,
Through whom you brighten up the night.
How beautiful he is, how gay! Full of power and strength.

All praise be yours, my Lord, through Sister Earth, our mother,
Who feeds us in her sovereignty and produces
Various fruits and colored flowers and herbs.

All praise be yours, my Lord, through those who grant pardon
For love of you; through those who endure
Sickness and trial.

Happy those who endure in peace,
By you, Most High, they will be crowned.

All praise be yours, my Lord, through Sister Death,
From whose embrace no mortal can escape.
Woe to those who die in mortal sin!
Happy those She finds doing your will!
The second death can do no harm to them.

Praise and bless my Lord, and give him thanks,
And serve him with great humility.

--St. Francis of Assisi

On my Excommunication.

2005-11-06T13:40:00.000-08:00

A few of you may have already heard, but I'm sure that most of my readers will be surprised to learn that I have been excommunicated from my Order. I am no longer a Benedictine, and all my future posts will be written as a member of the Laity. I know that some of you have been heartbroken and disillusioned by the turn of events, but take heart. The Lord works in mysterious ways, and I am confident that even amidst the present sorrow, His wise and guiding hand is ever in control.

I'll not go into the reasoning for my excommunication, as it is wisest to leave it the business of the Order and myself. But I will say that there is no need for anger nor the pointing of fingers. I did what I felt I had to do, and my superiors did the same. The result was that our differences were found to be irreconcilable, and it was in the best interests of both the Order and myself that I was released from my duties. I am sure that the decision was carefully and prayerfully made by those in charge, and that they have acted in the way they feel is best. I still hold the Order, along with its Abbot, Priors and members in the highest esteem, and pray for their continued blessings.

Fret not, for I have not been left churchless, but have am attending a church with the Episcopal Church USA that has been my church home for a few months now, even before my excommunication from the Order. Even amidst the turmoil, I am finding peace within my life's new path, and continue an ever-growing process of discernment and seeking the Face of God. My trust remains ever in Him, and I remain confident that He will guide my steps in whatever direction pleases Him. Amen.

- Riley

All Hallow's Eve

2005-11-06T13:30:00.000-08:00

Note: This article was origianlly posted on the thirty-first of October of the two thousand and fifth year of our Lord.

Ahh, Halloween, the time of year when children dress as their favorite cartoon character, candy sales reach an all time high, and people find new and creative uses for toilet paper. And yes, there amidst all the fun and festivity is the inevitable cry of certain sects of Christianity of the evils of the holiday, and how it's the day of Satan and other such garbage. While I might that the modern celbration of Halloween is a clever plot by the candy companies, the evil stops there. But what's the truth about this severely misunderstood holiday? Let's take a look.

Most historians agree that the orgin of the October 31 festival dates back to the Druidic Celts (located in Ireland, Scotland, England and Wales). The festival was known as Samhain (pronounced Sow- as in cow -an as in, uh, an.) It was a festival of the dead, in which the divide between the world's narrowed enough that the two worlds sort of mingled, allowing the dead to walk the earth for that night. The festival lasted for three days, Oct 31- Nov2. The carving out of turnips and lighting them with candles was used for the frightening away of evil spirits. (The pumpkin came into vogue in America when Irish immigrants brought the tradition of Halloween with them.) Food offerings would be left for the dead (which would sometimes be snatched by mischevious children dressed as ghouls, thus adding to the mischevious orgins of the holiday) Communities would also dress as ghouls and goblins and the like so that they could blend in with the dead.

When the Romans began to conquer Celtic lands, the harvest aspect of the feast was added, taken from the Roman festival for Pamona, goddess of the orchards. Thus we get the drinking of cider and bobbing for apples that we still recognize today.

Now, when the Catholic missionaries came to the Celtic lands they found many converts, and Catholocism was well recieved. However, the locals would hardly be willing to give up their native traditions. One might think that this would be a conflict with the new found Church in Ireland, but not so. The Church merely decided to "baptize" the festival and refurbish it with a Christian flare. So it was the decision of Pope Gregory IV to move the celebration of martys from May 3, to November 1, falling right in the middle of the feast of Samhain. November 2 became All Soul's Day, and October 31, the eve of All Saints, became known as All Hallow's Eve, eventually shortened to Halloween. The tradition of honoring the dead was still kept, as we remember the Saints who have died before us, and many other traditions of the Celts and Romans were perserved. The Church was happy, the natives were happy. It was the ultimate win-win situation, and has preserved a culturally rich holiday.

Anyway, so when your or your child gets one of those little comic book witness tracks dissing Halloween, assure the giver that while some dark individuals may have added a Satanic flare to the holiday, thus creating the need to keep close watch on your children, it is well rooted in Christian and Irish tradition, and has no Satanic orgins at all. Oh, and send the giver to this blog. They might find this educational. Trick or treat!

-Vincent Christian

But don't just take my word for it, check out this informative site written by Roman Catholic Brian Paul. http://www.envoymagazine.com/backissues/2.5/story1.html

St. Vincent de Paul

2005-09-27T18:27:00.000-07:00

Today is the memorial of St. Vincent de Paul, the saint after whom I was named. As my choosing his name would suggest, he is one of my favorite saints, whom I greatly wish to imitate. He is the patron of charities, one who always devoted himself to serving the poor and needy. He was a French priest, who lived as a slave for a time in Tunis. After two years, Divine Providence saw fit to release him, and he returned to Paris. In a time when war racked the French countryside, Vincent devoted himself to feeding the poor, often going with little or no food to ensure that those who came to him had something to eat. He was also instrumental in the founding of the Sisters of Charity, whose efforts did much to relieve the suffering of the French people. It is truly impossible to enumerate all he did in service to God, but his concern for people of all backgrounds and social statuses, paired with his selfless charity, make him a saint truly worthy of consideration.

Prayer: God, You gave St. Vincent de Paul apostolic virtues for the salvation of the poor and the formation of the clergy. Grant that, endowed with the same spirit, we may love what he loved and act according to his teaching. Amen.

Vincent Christian.

On Tact.

2005-09-19T10:11:00.000-07:00

It’s an interesting thing-- tact. We hear about it often, in business associations, diplomatic relationships and other such formal interactions. I'd say we all agree it's a good thing. After all, it is a prime key to basic manners. We try to teach it to our children, that they respect adults, family and their peers. We try to utilize it with one another out of respect and love for our fellow man. That is-- until the subject of religion comes up. Then, it seems that the gloves come off, we get our elbows up and all attempt at tact comes to a screeching halt.

It's a subject I've often thought on, and one that I must be very careful when discussing, in order to keep myself from diving into a full out rant. Because of all the stupid things that people do, this one is placed way, way at the top of my list of personal grievances. But I shall try my best to remain objective, logical and tactful about it.

I suppose what baffles me most is that people actually seem to think that by being completely rude to someone, you can show them the light, bring them over to your point of view, and everything will be nice and rosy with everyone happy. It's not really a side of ourselves that we like to think about, and I have to confess that I myself am not always the most tactful of people. But I do know that it breaks my heart to see people of other religions come to me full of pain and seeking some kind of assurance that Christianity is not populated by the kind of blatantly mean people whom they'd just encountered. For example, I recently came into the acquaintanceship of a young lady through this blog who was a pagan. She'd read the blog, and wanted to see what kind of person I was, because she'd just had a rather nasty encounter with a local church. Curious about the Christian faith, she went to see for herself what it was about. Her first day there, the pastor told her, quite bluntly that 1. she had to remove the pentagram on her necklace, 2. she was outright evil, and 3. he thought she needed an exorcism. To my knowledge she's never been back to a church. If you ask me, that pastor did more damage than good.

Yes, perhaps her wearing a pentacle wasn't the best discretion, but let's turn the tables. Let's say that I, as a Christian, were to attend, for whatever reason, a synagogue. Upon entering, the rabbi sees my cross, which I never take off, and begins to lecture me on why Judaism is the right way, and I should abandon my "false" Christian faith. He takes no time to get to know me, anything about me, just goes right into all the reasons I'm wrong. It would probably take all of three seconds for mind to slam shut to whatever it is he's trying to tell me. First of all, you really can't do that about any idea, but when you add sacred beliefs into the mix, the fire can only get that much hotter.

Another thing I've often heard in defense of such actions is "Well it's true isn't it?" It's pretty easy to pinpoint when it's not true, like the zealots who like to parade around with signs that read God hates fags. First of all, it's a blatant lie, and second, it is damaging. How many in the gay community do you think were inspired to repentance from reading something like that? I doubt it's a far stretch to say none.

But suppose something really is true? An example that comes to mind is a conversation that I was privy to among some friends about a relative of theirs who was exploring the Catholic Church. One woman, who I love dearly (though I think it wiser that she and I not discuss religion), chimed in "Well, it certainly wouldn't be my first choice, but I guess it's better than nothing." Apparently, the offence showed on my face, because she followed up to me with an unapologetic, "Well, I'm sorry, but it's the truth." Which I'm sure it was. I've no doubt to her honesty in that situation, but it was still rude, whether true or not.

My point is, that even with undisputable truth, one must be gentle. Truth is not a weapon to wield with which you can browbeat one to enlightenment. In scripture, Truth is equated to Light. Whenever I'm in bed, and it's dark, and someone comes and flips on the light switch, do I want to thank them for bringing me the light? No! I cringe and hide under the covers and throw things at the person who so harshly exposed me to that light. Truth is very similar. Even when in fact you are right and they're wrong, you cannot be harsh with that Truth. In fact, if you try to slam them into it, they'll probably tell you exactly where you can stick your "Truth".

The problem stems from Truth that is presented without Love. Paul addressed this, saying that even if one held all wisdom, and could speak with all tongues of men and angels but had no love, then it was vanity. I'm sure that those who harshly use Truth have the best of intentions. Few do it to be mean. They really want to see people brought to salvation, and that can blur the senses when one's passion runs without temperance. In their eagerness, they have forgotten the main tenants of Love. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices in the Truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

"A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another." John 13:34 Amen.

Vincent Christian.

TULIP: The Five Points of Calvinism.

2005-08-18T18:12:00.000-07:00

I've never posted on a request before, but when a highly esteemed teacher of mine asked me to post my thoughts on Calvinism, I just couldn't refuse him. What Sifu wants, Sifu gets! This is for you, sir.

Okay, so I'd studied Calvinism back when I went to the Christian Academy I attended, but I'd long forgotten the premise of it, so had to do a little research. For those of you unfamiliar with Calvinism, check out the handy little site I looked up. http://www.mslick.com/tulip.htm From the moment I saw the word TULIP, my mind snapped back to essay questions I'd answered in high school. The acronym stands for:
Total Depravity
Unconditional Election
Limited Atonement
Irresistible Grace
Perseverance of the Saints

Let's break them down, and take on each point one at a time.

Total Depravity- I'd have to say that I agree on this one. But before you let that shock you, let me clarify. Total depravity sounds pretty harsh, like I'm saying we're all a bunch of psychos who skin people and eat babies or something. However this is far from what I mean, and what I believe the Calvinists are trying to get at. The point is that we are all sinners, and that not one individual (save Christ himself) lived or will live a sinless life. Some Catholics believe that the Blessed Mother never sinned, but, while I believe in the doctrine of the Immaculate Conception, I don't believe that even our Holy Mother lived a completely sinless life. [Note: as pointed out by one of the comments, this is NOT a catholic teaching. Those who ascribe to such doctrine have misunderstood the official teaching of the Church.] So I guess I do buy into this one, though personally I think they should find a better name for this point. It just sounds mean.

Unconditional Election (also known as Predestination)- Moving on, we come to the second point, where my agreement with Calvinist doctrine comes to a screeching halt. The doctrine of unconditional election states that God has predestined some for salvation and others not. If you aren't one of the "elect" then there's nothing you can do to obtain salvation. Personally, I believe the idea that God would call some and not others to be complete rubbish. John 3:16, probably the most quoted verse in the Bible states, "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life." Christ came for the whole world, not just the few "elect". Which leads us to point three...

Limited Atonement- Limited Atonement states that, "Though Jesus’ sacrifice was sufficient for all, it was not efficacious for all." (Quoted from the above site) This is merely stating that Christ's death was indeed good enough to atone for all sins, but it only atoned for those who are "chosen". I find this doctrine a little difficult to articulate upon. While it seems logical to me to say that his atonement only affected the sins of those who choose to follow His path, I am hesitant to say that I fully agree with this teaching. On the one hand, I don't ascribe to unconditional election, so therefore can't say that only sins the predestined were cleansed. But on the other hand, if one doesn't accept Christ as their Lord, then they are still held accountable for their sins, which will not be covered at the judgment. I suppose the best description I can give this is that it is gray area, depending upon one's point of view.

Irresistible Grace- And so we move from a difficult gray area, to something far easier for me to side on, for it is closely coupled to the doctrine of predestination. Here is one that I wholeheartedly disagree with, probably more strongly than I disagree with any other Calvinist point. But allow me to digress to a bit of explanation. The doctrine of Irresistible Grace states that when one (of the elect) receives God's call to salvation, they cannot resist it. I suppose it's not surprising that I so strongly disagree with this doctrine, as one would have to accept predestination to accept irresistible grace. What I mainly object to in this doctrine is that it wipes away all hint of free will. If one is destined to be "saved" or "lost" without having any say in it, when why would one even have to exert an effort? The truth is that all are called to salvation, and the only person who can keep you from accepting it is yourself. God wants to see all attain salvation, and has made every necessary step for all to reach that goal. However, we each have free will as to whether or not we will accept that gift. If God made his call irresistible, then Man would have never seen the Fall in the first place, for God is a loving Father, who desires that none of his children sin nor reap the wages thereof. It is because God loves us that he gave us that precious and terrible gift of free will. I've heard many lament to me about the free will given us, because it would be so much easier to live in accordance with scripture if we had no choice. This is certainly true, but then all the beauty and value of our intimate relationship with God would be stripped away, and all meaning in it would be lost. For this, He stands there with arms wide open, calling all, forcing none, and waiting patiently.

Perseverance of the Saints- Now here is a doctrine that I have struggled with for as long as I've been old enough to debate doctrine. As a child (having been raised Baptist), it was one that I accepted without question. But once I was old enough to reason things out, I began to question it. Once again, I believe it comes down to perspective, for the same idea, worded differently, can cause one to say either yes or no on this particular point. I was actually discussing it with a friend just a few days ago, and made the argument that if one were to become "saved" at many protestants put it, and reverted back to a life of sin with no regard for Christ, then I would hardly expect that such an individual would truly attain salvation. To which he replied, "Ah, but such a person wasn't really saved in the first place, were they?" A great cause of confusion here is a misunderstanding in language. What Protestants refer to as becoming "saved", most Catholics call "conversion". To a Catholic, conversion is the first step on the path to salvation. To many Protestants, you gain salvation in the instant you are saved, and the rest of your Christian walk is the fulfillment of that salvation. They say that if you turn back, then you were never really saved to begin with. Like I said, same thing, different words. In each view the beginning is the same- profession in Christ. The end result is the same- heaven. And the entire path in between should be the same- a constant effort at morality (and of course Catholics get a wee stop in Purgatory too). My point is, that it didn't take much discussion for my friend and I to agree that whether or not you believe that salvation is something secured with the first step, or secured along the way, you must stay the course and keep the faith. It is in our earnest desire to serve Him that we find salvation, rather than ascribing to the "right" doctrine. Amen.

I did my best to accurately represent the Calvinist view, but I in no way claim to be an expert on their doctrines. If there happen to be any Calvinists out there who feel that I have misinterpreted or misrepresented their creeds, please set me straight, so I can make correction. -Vincent Christian

A new take on "Thou shalt not steal".

2005-08-13T10:22:00.000-07:00

"If I take anything that I do not need for my own immediate use and keep it, I thieve it from somebody else. It is the fundamental law of Nature, without exception, that Nature produces enough for our wants from day to day; and if only everybody took enough for himself and nothing more there would be no pauperism in this world, there would be no man dying of starvation. I am no Socialist, and I do not want to dispossess those who have got possessions; but I do say that personally those of us who want to see light out of darkness have to follow this rule. I do not want to dispossess anybody; I should then be departing from the rule of Non-Violence. If somebody else possesses more than I do, let him. But so far as my own life has to be regulated I dare not possess anything which I do not [need]." -Mahatma Gandhi

I've lately been reading a book by an Anglican priest who was a friend of Gandhi, about this rather remarkable thinker of our time. While I can't say that I agree with all of Gandhi's philosophies, especially concerning that there are many paths towards salvation, I believe that he has much to say worthy of consideration. This passage in particular stood out to me. As I considered it, Christ's teaching about the spirit of the Law came to mind. Christ says that if you hate your brother without cause, then you have murdered him already, or that if you look at someone and lust, then already you have committed adultery with them. In other words, one doesn't have to physically do the deed to be guilty of it in God's eyes.

When the rich young ruler came to Christ and asked him how to become perfect, Christ told him to follow the law, which the ruler claimed to have done from his youth. Christ then instructs him to sell his possessions and give to the poor. The young man went away sad, for he had much. By the letter of the law, he was no thief, for he had not stolen that which belonged to someone else. But perhaps by being unwilling to give, he was a far worse thief than if he'd actually taken something. For while a thief can steal something they legitimately need, such as food or clothing (not that it's right), he was unwilling to give when he had much.

Christ summarized the Law thus: Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all you soul and with all your mind. Love your neighbor as yourself. When one who has anything is unwilling to give to one who has nothing, then they are blatantly ignoring that commandment. You don't let someone you love go hungry or be cold. When you love someone, you want them to be full and warm and safe, even at the cost of your own luxury. When you love someone, you don't rob them of your charity.

I confess that I myself, am one such terrible thief. Let us meditate upon the law, and open ourselves up to the spirit of it, rather than just the letter. Perhaps thereby we'll see less people hungry, and more set upon the path to salvation. Amen.

Vincent Christian.

"Generic" goodness.

2005-08-12T11:25:00.000-07:00

As some of you know, I've recently begun studying Kung Fu, a Chinese martial art that requires great strength and dexterity (both of which I greatly lack for now). Anyway, even after a few weeks of classes I still find myself remarkably sore after class, and especially when I wake up in the morning. To try and ease the pain, I bought a tube of sports cream, kind of like Bengay, except for the much cheaper Wal-Mart brand (since I'm cheap). So last night I got home after class and decided to treat my sore legs and back so that I'd wake up a little less cranky. I smoothed the cream on and felt nothing. "Bah," I thought, "that's what I get for buying the cheap stuff." But after a few minutes, I found that my entire body felt as though it were on fire! That "cheap stuff" packed a punch! I had to wait for it to ease up before I could even go to sleep.

Sometimes in life we get a false impression that because something isn't "the Name brand" it is somehow inferior. I guess that people can be kind of like sports cream in that aspect. The outer shell might not look like much, or even when you start to get little bit of a feel for them they just don't seem to have that substance. But give them a chance to work, let them get a little deeper, and BAM! Burning legs! Or hearts or whatever in the case of people. My point is, that just because a person doesn't seem to be making any progress in their social, economic or spiritual life, that doesn't make them inferior in anyway. I know this is something we all know in our heads, but sometimes it's difficult to apply it in real life, especially when you're confronted with a person whose beauty is hard to see. However, if I had merely gone and washed the muscle rub off and cast it aside, I'd have never known what it could really do. Give people a chance, believe in them, and don't be shocked when a dim little flame turns into warming bonfire that gives warmth and light to many. Amen.

Oh, and for those concerened, my muscles do feel much better, though my Kung Fu master still has me plenty sore.

Vincent Christian

On Prayer Books.

2005-07-31T14:31:00.000-07:00

A good friend of mine who is a protestant has often debated with me on the subject of prayer books. He says that he prefers for his prayer to be spontaneous and personal, rather than from a book that someone else has written. While I completely agree that prayer is a very personal act, and there is nothing wrong with spontaneous prayer, I believe the use of a prayer book, or memorized prayer such as the Rosary, to be an excellent tool for spiritual development.

One of the greatest complaints about standardized prayers, especially the Rosary, is that they are overly redundant, saying the same prayers over and over again. This may be true, for within one 5 mystery Rosary, one says the Hail Mary 53 times, the Our Father 7 times and the Glory Be 7 times. This seems like much repetition if one is used to praying in their own words. However, it seems that we in this modern society have lost sight of the very valuable tool that repetition is. The Chinese have a very wise saying about repetition. "Ten thousand strokes to mastery." Whether leaning calligraphy or training in a martial art, one must practice the same stroke over and over again until it becomes so natural to them that they needn't even think about it. It is the same way with prayer, for we are not sitting down to just say our prayer quota for the day, rather we are training ourselves towards a life of prayer.

Also, use of memorized or written prayers allows one to really focus on the meaning behind the words, rather than putting their energy into thinking up the words. Often when listening to a person pray spontaneously before a group, the prayer is filled with "uh", "um", "Dear Lord" and pauses where they are unnecessary, not to mention distracting. However, in reciting a prayer that you know by heart, you can venture past the words and truly meditate on the spirit of the prayer. It eases nervousness, centers one's focus, and allows for a deeper connection to God. That is not to say that every prayer one offers is to be pre-memorized. Such prayers are just springboards to set us on the path of living a prayer-filled life. In between the Daily Offices (Matins and Vespers, as well as several other Hours) one's mind is distracted with the work of the day, but needn't be too distracted for prayer. We can pray constantly throughout the day, which is what the Daily Offices are teaching us to do. It is the sitting down with a prayer book or Rosary that brings one's prayers into sharper focus, thereby intensifying the meditation and closeness with God.

While made up prayers are a wonderful expression of the innermost yearnings of our hearts, few of us, if we are honest, can claim to have the spiritual discipline required to prayer intently all day. This is why prayer books and other prayer exercises are spiritual gifts, given to us by God through scripture and His saints.

The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Love of God and the fellowship of the Holy Ghost be with us all evermore. Amen.

Vincent Christian

On the Priesthood

2005-07-23T18:19:00.000-07:00

In my discussions with Christians outside the Catholic faith, I've often heard these questions: "Why does the Catholic Church place so much importance on the priesthood? Doesn't that unnecessarily elevate the necessity of these ministers over the necessity of the laity?" The questions show a few misunderstandings about the nature of the priesthood. First, I would remind us that the priesthood is not a man-made office. Holy Orders is a sacrament ordained by Christ himself. So it is God who chose to establish it in its special place. We, as Catholics, are merely being obedient in the respect we show to those whom He has chosen to fill this vital role.

Secondly, to take on the role of priest is not to take a step above your peers, but rather a step down. Just as Christ came to serve, not to be served, so are His priests servants to His people. They are sent as loving Fathers and guides, not dictators. They are the keepers and distributors of the Sacraments. Such responsibility demands much energy, and yes, requires that a certain amount of authority go with it. We are instructed to submit to our priests, not because they are our superiors, but because Christians are in fact called to be submissive people. Several times in the Epistles of Paul, Christians are instructed to submit to one another. So if we are to submit to one another in love, how much more are we to submit to our spiritual leaders, who bear such a great burden?

We must remember that it is the office to which we show honor, not the individual. There are many bad priests out there, who make no effort to live a life of virtue and have become cold in their duties. However this in no way invalidates the sacraments that they offer, for the power to perform the sacraments comes from God, not the man. There is a famous account about St. Francis of Assisi, who, upon visiting a small town, was met by the people with the demand for chastisement for their wicked priest. The good monk accompanied the people to meet the priest, who had become hardened, and brazenly awaited what Francis would have to say. St. Francis silenced the crowd, who awaited eagerly to see what harsh words he would have for the priest. However, very meekly and quietly, Francis took the hands of the priest in his own and spoke. "Whether or not this man has tainted his hands, I know not. All I know is that these hands bring me Christ." (meaning in the Eucharist) The priest's hardened heart was turned, and he repented of his acts, while the people learned a valuable lesson about the Holy Priesthood.

St. Francis had a high regard for the priesthood, as we should today. Our priests come under fierce attacks of the devil, who knows that he can do great damage by taking out a single priest. This is why priests need our fervent prayers and support. Not only do they come under fire of terrible temptation, but they also bear the burdens of their entire congregations. This is why so many priests fall, not because they are weak men, but because they are in the direct line of fire. In order to protect our spiritual leaders from such harm, we must be willing to humble ourselves enough to come down and lift them onto our own shoulders. It's not that they elevate themselves, for there should be no need for that, as we should do it for them. So I suppose answer to the question, "Why choose do you elevate your priests so?" would be that I don't. I would much prefer to humble myself. Amen.

Vincent Christian

On the Most Blessed Sacrament

2005-07-17T05:14:00.000-07:00

Out of all the seven Sacraments, one is considered to be the most blessed of all. In the Eucharist (or Communion or The Lord's Supper), we partake of the body and blood of Christ in keeping with his instructions at the last supper with his disciples. While most Protestant churches do not acknowledge any Real presence in the Eucharist, Catholics believe in Transubstanciation (the actual transformation of bread and wine into the physical body and blood of Christ when it is consecrated by a priest). It is this belief that allows us to find far deeper meaning in the Lord's Supper, and part of the reason why we put so much emphasis on it within the Mass. It is in the Eucharist that we are able to come face to face with Christ in a very real and inspiring way.

There are many arguments today as to whether or not transubstanciation is a reality, but I'm not interested in focusing on those today. My intent is not to convince you of the doctrine, but to share its beauty, so that even if you are not Catholic, you can have some appreciation as to what we believe.

Within the Mass, there are plentiful symbolic elements, ranging from vestments and bells and so forth. While someone new to the Church might find such things to be mere pomp, they are actually vital elements of the celebration. It's true that the Mass could certainly be celebrated without such things if they were not available, but the visual reminders help us to focus our minds upon what is both a joyful and solemn event. In the Eucharist, we are remembering the Lord's death, which calls for some seriousness, but were are also rejoicing at his presence, the promise of his coming, and the hope that his words will be fulfilled. There are times during the Church year that are more celebratory while others are more somber. Just as Easter and Christmas are our most festive occasions, Lent would be a more solemn time of reflection. But even in the most somber days, there is always an element of joy within the Mass. It is this unusual cohabitation of joy and sorrow that allows us to appreciate how we in our own lives can still have joy, even in the most sorrowful of circumstances.

But let's get back to the Eucharist, which is certainly the most important facet of the Mass. It is in the Eucharist, when the priest says the prayer of consecration, that the bread and wine become the actual body and blood of Christ. He is then there with us in a physical way that we cannot otherwise experience on earth. Because it is the actual body and blood of Christ, Catholics are expected to observe the Eucharistic Fast in which they do not eat for one hour before the Mass (for more orthodox Christians, the fast begins on midnight of the prior day). One can also notice that great care is taken not to spill a single crumb of consecrated bread. When one receives, they are not supposed to touch the bread, other than the brief transition from the priest's hand to their own mouths. Some even allow the priest to place the Host directly in their mouth, out of respect. Also, one is not to take the Eucharist unworthily, meaning if they are aware of unconfessed sin, they are not to partake before proper confession.

It is also because of this special emphasis on the Eucharist, that non-Catholics are requested not to partake. But Protestants should not feel excluded by this. It is certainly not a shot at them. In fact, even a Catholic who has not yet been Confirmed (another Sacrament which will be discussed later) by a Bishop is required to wait until after their Confirmation. The reason for the "exclusion" is that the Eucharist is such a meaningful event, that the Church wants one to have full understanding and appreciation of it before taking it. It is a concern born out of love, not arrogance, as some think.

Also, for those who wish to approach the alter for a blessing may, without taking the Eucharist. Instead of holding out your hands, or opening your mouth, merely cross your hands over your chest and the priest will bless you. This option is open to all, not just Catholics.

If you have seen a Mass but don't understand all that you've seen, look up a local priest and ask questions. Even if you interest is not in converting, it would be spiritually beneficial to explore all of the beauty and wonder that is the Eucharist. Amen.

Vincent Christian

Waiting for love.

2005-07-15T05:23:00.000-07:00

I've often come across young people who are losing hope in their search for that one person they want to spend their lives with. After what seems like endless episodes of heartache and being used, the hope that once burned so brightly inside them begins to wane. It's a confusing and painful experience, for there are many who sense the call to the vocation of raising a Godly family, and how can they do that without finding their spouse?

The calling to building a Christian home is a fine one, one that is often overlooked among the virtues of the work of the Church. Much emphasis is put on those who are called to dedicate themselves to Christ either as religious or priestly individuals. However it is truly the Christian parents who further the future of the church. The role of husband/wife, mother/father is truly one of the most difficult vocations out there, and those called to it are blessed with a great responsiblity.

But those who are actively seeking their Christian lifemate already know what a blessing it would be to have their partner, perhaps so much so that they are missing out on the blessings of being single. Life is a journey, and while marriage may be the worthy and exciting end goal, one should not miss all the beauty of the single walk. The time of aloneness before marriage is a time of growth and maturing, during which one prepares themself for a walk that will be with another for the rest of their lives. Each part of the journey which God calls us on is a blessed, filled with opportunity and promise. Even when we mess up and stray from God's perfect plan, He can take the bad, break it down and mold it into something beneficial.

So enjoy whatever stage of life you are in, whether it be single, married or with children. When you enter the next stage, there is no going back. But the richness of the previous stage can have profound influence on your current steps, so don't overlook any opportunities on your quest to reach the next level.

For those who are finding the wait difficult, I would encourage you to take comfort in the arms of Christ and our Blessed Mother. Within their loving and waiting arms is perfect fulfillment and grace. It's the perfect place to be while waiting for the arms of the one He's created for you. Amen.

Vincent Christian.

St. Maria Goretti

2005-07-06T04:48:00.000-07:00

Today is the feast day of St. Maria Goretti. St. Maria died very young, at the age of twelve. Her attacker was 18 year old Alessandro Serenelli who began stabbing her with a dagger when she struggled against his attempt to ravage her. Right before she died at the hospital, she forgave her attacker, who was taken to jail. For years Alessandro remained unrepentant, until he had a dream, or vision of the young Maria, gathering flowers and offering them to him. His life changed drastically, and upon his release, he begged the forgiveness of her mother.

When she was cannonized in 1950, Alessandro was among the crowd who came to celebrate.

This young woman's story is an amazing account of forgivness and love. When Christ commanded us to love our enemies, He must have meant something like this. Through her selfless ability to forgive, despite suffering terrible wrongs, she obtained the salvation of Alessandro's soul. Her profound insight helped her to look past the pains suffered in this world to think of the life to come, not only for her, but for her attacker as well. In light of such breathtaking courage, forgiving those who hurt us seems a little bit easier, doesn't it? Amen.

Vincent Chrisitan

Independence Day.

2005-07-05T06:14:00.000-07:00

In honor of the hard earned freedoms of our county, let us take a moment to give thanks to those men and women who have given their sweat, blood and tears to gift us with the extraordinary prize of freedom. Let us not view it with cold indifference, nor take such freedom for granted. We live in a country that, despite all it's shortcomings, allows us to practice our faith freely and speak out against injustice. In a time when the Church falls under heavier opposition everyday, we are not powerless to resist it. Stand up, speak out, get involved.

For "if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land." 2 Chronicles 7:13

Let us offer up a special prayer on behalf of those men and women in Iraq and around the world who fight our wars, so that we may rest in peace. Amen.

Vincent Christian

On Suffering

2005-07-03T13:06:00.000-07:00

"If God is good, then why are good people made to suffer?" It's a common enough question, one that you've probably heard, or even asked in your lifetime. There are even some Christians who believe that if you are unhappy, or are experiencing some sort of suffering, it is because your walk with God is somehow lacking. If everything is not going well for you, then you must be doing something wrong. This is a rather unrealistic notion, and one that is certianly not backed up by scripture. In fact, Christ warned that to live the Christian life is to know suffering. In fact, if the One who lived a perfect life, Christ, had to suffer, why should we then expect that our life should be one of ease?

There are countless examples of faithful servants of God who experienced suffering in their life. Possibly the most obvious of these is Job. God was very pleased with Job, but still allowed terrible suffering to test this devout man. Is this because God is thoughtless, uncaring or cruel? Certianly not. As Christians, we can take comfort in the knowledge that while we may suffer, our suffering is never without purpose. Suffering helps us to mature in our walk, come to a deeper understanding of Christ's suffering, and counsel others who also suffer.

But the unhappiness that suffering brings need not rob us of the peace of God. Even in the midst of frightful heartache, one can find some comfort in one's faith. Even I at times, as the tears rolled down my face, was strengthened by the knowledge that God can take bad times, even those brought on by my own sin, and turn them into something good and beautiful so that I may learn and grow even closer to Him. While this knowledge didn't necessarily erase the mourning, it did give me hope that the days of sadness would pass, and there would be something worthwhile left when they did.

The apostle Paul addressed the subject and exhorts us to rejoice in our suffering, and be glad when we are persecuted. It is when you do what is right, or take a stand for the Truth that perscution comes. Therefore even in light of the persecution, there is joy to be had, for while it may cause pain in this life, you can rest assured that your sorrow will be cleansed away in the next.

Too often people seek to be Christ-like by only imitating the good times: miracles, healings and teachings. But if you want to be fully like Christ, you must take all of Him, even the suffering Christ of the cross. If you would be like Him, you must "take up your cross, and follow [Him]." (Matt. 16:24) Amen.

Vincent Christian

Salvation by faith or works?

2005-06-30T07:50:00.000-07:00

In various Bible related classes, I've come across the question of whether works are necessary for salvation, or if faith alone is enough. Sadly enough, there are some factions of Christianity that teach that one can say a simple prayer and that one is "saved" for eternity, like flipping some divine lightswitch. This is a dangerous doctine, for many are led astray by it and have a false sense of security as to their eternal fate. They are taught that because they believe, that is enough, but Scripture says that even the demons believe. It is by faith that one is saved, and faith is something that goes much deeper than mere belief. The two are related, but not interchangable. One can believe something without putting much faith into it, but if I have faith in something, then belief is an element of that faith.

I am convinced that anyone asking such a thing has a skewed view of the relationship shared by faith and works, for the two are truly inseperable. While one can do works without having faith, it is impossible to have true faith without works. Works are the natural result of faith, because when one has faith in something or someone, the very nature of faith stirs one to action.

I would certianly agree that works do not save you, for as I pointed out, anyone can do works, even one who is hopelessly lost. However, if you have true faith, then the response within you is so deep that works are the natural manifestation of that faith. Many claim to have faith while refusing to work for the advancement of Christ's kingdom. Such people are in fact faithless, and are on a very dangous track. Contrawise, there are many who put all their effort into works, such as feeding the hungry and tending the sick. In and of themselves, these are fine things, no doubt; however without faith, they will do you no good in eternity.

It's a rather simple "If P then Q" equation. If you have faith, works will follow. Think about it. If you tell a friend that you have faith in them, yet do not behave in accord with your words, then one can easily see that such proclaimations are a lie. If we claim to have faith in God, the one being who we can truly put all our faith in and will never let us down, then how much more should we be willing to do his work here on earth?

So while it is true that it is not the works themselves that save you, it is also true that they are a very real and necessary part of the path to salvation. Amen.

A response to Martin Luther's "Treatise on Christian Liberty"

2005-06-28T05:54:00.000-07:00

To take in the full meaning of this essay, it would be beneficial to read over Luther's original document. A copy of the Treatise can be found here: http://www.iclnet.org/pub/resources/text/wittenberg/luther/web/cclib-2.html

"It does not help the soul if the body... is occupied with sacred duties or prays, fasts, abstains..." (Luther)

Luther is mistaken in this reasoning, in that he does not take into account that while the flesh and spirit are two separate and contradicting commodities, they are inseparably joined until the point of death, when we abandon our weak flesh. While still living, the two are joined, and what affects one will have profound effect on the other. It is by strengthening their spirit that the martyrs were able to strengthen their flesh, and only thereby endure the tortures of the persecuting they suffered. Likewise will abuse of the body adversely affect the spirit. It is only by God's grace that one is able to overcome the spirit's natural reaction to physical suffering.

By discipline our flesh via fasting, abstinence and prayer, we are able to combat the body's inclination to pull us away from our spiritual walk. While Luther is correct in the statement, "...the things which have been mentioned could be done my any wicked person." he neglects the fact that this can be true of any Christian duty. Even the wicked can aid the poor or comfort those who mourn. Should these noble Christian works be cast aside, merely because the wicked might also perform them? Surely not. So neither should God's gifts of the Sacraments be neglected. In His chastisement of the Pharisees, it is the motivation behind their acts which Christ criticizes, rather than the acts themselves.

Luther justifies his view that works are not necessary in the statement "... it is clear that... it is justified by faith alone, and not any works for if it could be justified by anything else, it would not need the Word, and consequently it would not need faith..." While it is certainly true that it is one's faith that saves them, not works lest any man should boast, it is also true that faith without works is dead. When asked how one can be saved, Christ would respond "repent and be baptized." It is not the baptism which saves, as even a baptized person can lack salvation, but the follow up of the obedience that confirms the faith. If one believes yet does not obey, does not strive to live a pious, godly life, then they are the very definition of a faithless person. One can claim all day to be a friend to their brother, but if they are not there when needed, if one does not back up their claim with works, then they are not a very faithful friend. Likewise, profession without obedience is vain. Not all who say "Lord, Lord," shall be saved. The parable of the sower is a perfect example of this truth. Those whose faith was shallow were eaten up or choked out. Their belief did them little good as they were faithless. Too often the words "belief" and "faith" are used interchangeably. One can believe many things, and still be faithful in few. Belief is a component of faith, but faith encompasses much more than mere belief.

Luther makes a fine point in saying that "They [the commandments] are intended to teach man to know himself, that through them he may recognize his inability to do good and may despair of his own ability." This is wonderfully worded and very true, but does not exempt us of the works God had gifted us to do. As Paul says, "I strive for the mark of the high call." True, we can never live up to God's goodness, but we must always try. To aid this struggle, He gifted us with confession, penance, the Eucharist, etc. To cast aside these beautiful gifts is to snub God of His blessings offered to us, and is a great sin; not to mention extremely arrogant.

Luther's view on liberty is skewed in that it views works as a form of heavy bondage when in fact, they are the lighter yoke for which Christ exchanges the heavy yoke of sin. Paul refers to himself as a "slave to Christ" in which we become free of sin. By doing the devotions and works that God has given us, we become willing slaves of our good Master, rather than continuing to be slaves to the deadly yoke of sin. By utilizing these spiritual gifts, we are able to attain a closer walk with God and find true Christian Liberty.

In John Bunyan's book The Pilgrim's Progress, Christian speaks to Apollyon (Satan) as to how the wages for God's work are far better than the wages for Apollyon's, for the "wages of sin is death." When we become Christians, we receive new wages, not a decreased workload. However, we are assured that things will be better (not easier), and in knowing that it is God's work, we can be strengthened. It is by this strain and struggle-- and yes, even suffering, that we draw closer to God. Amen.

Vincent Christian

Heaven on Earth.

2005-06-27T07:12:00.000-07:00

In a recent Bible study, I was presented with an interesting question. "Can one know heaven while still here on earth?" Typical to my type of answer, I had to say, "Yes. And no." As far as a certian and full understanding, I would give an emphatic "no", for heaven is something too far from the realm of human comprehension for us to get a clear view of it in our present state. However, as far as viewing small glimpes, brief flickers of Light amist the Darkness, then I would say "yes".

But let us begin by first getting an idea of what heaven will be like, and what makes it such a worthwhile goal to strive for, not taking the alternative into account, of course. There are many cliche desriptions of heaven, ranging from pearly gates, to golden streets to an oasis and every other kind of earthly delight imaginable. I don't necessarly agree or disagree with any of these interpretations; however, I do believe that whether such plesantries will or won't be there is irrelevant. Personally, I could not care less if the streets are made of prescious metals or of dirt, or even if there will be streets at all. There is one thing alone that makes heaven the ultimate goal -- to be in the presence of God. Within His glory, everything else that one ever held dear will fade to nothing in an instant, like stars eclipsed by the light of the sun. It is He who makes heaven what it is, for all the comforts that eternity has to offer would be but vanity without His presence. The Saints already in heaven are not joyful because of they have attained some beautiful retirement. Rather, they have true joy because for time and all eternity they are able to look upon the very face of God. The same God they served on earth with utmost love and devotion, they can now interact with on a personal lever never before experienced.

Now, understanding that to view heaven is to see the face of God, we can better determine whether or not it is possible to experience heaven here on earth. Again, I say we can in part. While I fully believe that we shall never be able to imagine the full glory that is heaven, I do believe that we can view ocassional beams of the Light. After all, we acknowledge that all good is of God. And in creating the earth, God often proclaimed it as good. Also, humans are created in the very image of God, and therefore in some way reflect His goodness. While the world is undeniably full of evil, one doesn't have to look far to see good as well. When I hear my nieces laugh, or see my mother smile, or sit and listen to my Abbot play the piano, I see some very good and beautiful things -- things that fill me with comfort and hope. These things, be they talent, personality or spirit, are very clear reflections of God, mirrored in his creation. While they cannot replace the longing I naturally feel for closness with God, I dare not take the gifts for granted, for I well know that such gifts are granted me out of God's goodness, and any gift he sees fit to bestow upon me is one worth taking the time to appreciate.

So while one certianly does not want to become distracted with worldly things, one must also remember that simply because something exists in this world, does not make it of this world. We are but pilgrims in this life, striving for the homeland that is heaven, yet being ever mindful that the journey, with all it's tragic beauty, is as much a gift as the prize that awaits us hereafter. Amen.

Vincent Christian

Question on the divine femenine.

2005-06-25T02:21:00.000-07:00

I was recently in a rather interesting discussion on the topic of the divine femenine. The premise presented to me, was that the Holy Spirit was the female entity of God, known as Sophia (based upon the Greek for wisdom). Before I go on, however, allow me to clarify that, the idea of a Sophia is utter heresy, and I do not ascribe to it in the least. However, the discussion did bring up some interesting points.

In the book of Genesis, during the very famous account of creation, the Word states quite clearly that humans, both male and female, are made in the image of God. Also, the book of Proverbs often makes reference to wisdom, an undeniably God-given trait, in the femenine, always taking a femenine pronoun in reference to it. Some use this as a basis for the Sophia myth. While I wholeheartedly agree with both premises, I believe that the conclusion strays from any believable deduction and too far into unorthodoxy.

The Creation account gives us an excellent view into the nature of God, for by knowing that He made us in His image, we are able to learn much about Him. While I would feel it safe to say that there are certian femenine and masculine traits which God posesses, I believe that to ascribe a certian gender (be it femenine or masculine) to Him, is to greatly limit God in ways that he cannot be limited.

When looking at God, one must remember that it is we who are created in His image, and not the other way around. Therefore if we recall that it is both male and female who are made in his image, one can hardly say that God is either male or female. Some would use this to say that God is both, however I feel it more accurate to say that He is neither. Gender is a physical characteristic, and God, being above such bodily limitations, cannot be confined to such boundries.

Some proponents of God's masculinity argue that He is always referred to in the masculine in Scripture, and called Father. My answer to this, is that in speaking to humans through Scripture, God, being all knowing and trying to impart understanding to we who are considerably less than all knowing, must speak in words and images we can understand. This can be best illustraited by Christ's use of parables. Since humans are limited in understanding to that which we have seen and experienced, God speaks to us on our terms. While the image of some great omnisient, omnipresent being can be a difficult thing to grasp, the image of a loving Father is one more readily recieved into our imaginations, not to mention that it well personifies the relationship God wants to have with us. It is, at least in some small way, similar to when I refer to my Abbot as "Father". While is of no blood relation to me, he still takes the role of my spiritual father and guide. Just as my birth father guided and supported me while I grew up, so does my spiritual father lead me on the path of my spiritual development. How much moreso then, should God be our Father, who is our Guide and Support in all things? It is not a question of gender, but a question of His relation to us and ours to Him.

So if we agree that God may have certian traits that are masculine and certian that are femenine, how do we know which of these traits he posesses? That answer is rather simple. All that is good, comes from God. Any good that exists in me, is not of myself, but of God. This is true of any man or woman. Therefore, all that is good, of both genders, if of God. So take no pride in yourself, thinking that your masculinity or femeninity (whatever the case may be) gifts you to some rank or prestige, for nothing good comes of man (or woman). Also let not your gender be a source of shame or disgrace, for that too, is of God. And most imporantly, know that no matter who you are, reguardless of gender, race or social status, God understands you fully and completely in His perfect love. Amen.

Vincent Christian

God is Love.

2005-06-24T07:27:00.000-07:00

24 June 2005

In the book of First John, we are presented with the simple phrase "God is Love". The statement seems remarkably simple at first, being composed of only three short words. However on closer contemplation, one begins to get the full taste of this profound description of God. Humans toss around the little four letter word "love" quite frequently, when we in fact have only a fragment of understanding as to the word's true implications. While we in the mortal world tend to equate it to an emotion, or occasionally something deeper, the rich portrait painted by John in his epistle of God is something that delves past the very limit of human understanding.

And yet we try, as always to grasp the concept, because to meditate upon it is to seek out the very face of God. God is Love. What does that mean? It's hard to fathom anything being love, as we tend to use the word more often as a verb than a noun. And while love certainly has the element of action behind it, for one can hardly claim to truly love something without that love inspiring them to certain unavoidable results, love as a noun denotes the substantial reality of the word. Too often we equate love to this ideal that exists somewhere off in the realm of philosophy and ideas, and yet, it is very real and very attainable.

The world today spends a great deal of effort in search of love, as can be seen by the drastic increase in online dating services. People want to meet someone with whom they can share their experiences, their joys and sorrows, with the expectation that this human love will satisfy their intrinsic need for love. And yet it doesn't. Anyone who looks for such fulfillment in a person, even a spouse, will only find themselves disappointed. Don't get me wrong, a lifemate is certainly a blessing, and can be a source of great joy and love, but one must understand that any love we experience is only a reflection of that perfect Love that comes only from God. People often wonder why the divorce rate is so high. I believe it is because people are seeking to fill the void in their life with earthly love without the realization that only Divine Love can quench that thirst. When one puts all their hope in man, one cannot help but come up disappointed, no matter how exceptional one's spouse may be. Even the deepest soulmate cannot fill the role that God is meant to play in our lives, so putting such unreal expectations upon your mate can only serve to set that person, and that relationship up for failure.

But getting back to the question, what does it mean that "God is Love"? The verbs "is, am, are," are all conjugated forms of the verb "to be". The importance of this little word is reflected in its overly frequent use. If you've ever studied a foreign language, it is the first very conjugation you will learn. It is a necessary word in order to convey your sense of being. One cannot even begin to describe oneself without this word, and so we use it in every introduction, every conversation. The fact that God is Love does more than merely say that He feels Love, or that he acts upon Love. It goes much deeper than that. Right down to the very core of God's being, if we stip everything else away, all of history, all of our understanding and misunderstanding, all of creation to get down to the bare essence of what God is, we find Love. That Love which draws us to Him, that Love which the world tries and fails to fulfill with vanity, that Love which makes our frail and insignificant existence team with meaning that would otherwise be lost. And so, in stripping everything down to find the simple truth that God is Love, we find the very foundation for all that is. The entirety of existence revolves around this simply profound truth, that God is Love. Amen.

Vincent Christian